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11/18/08

November 18, 2008 at 4:36 pm · Filed under God, Jesus, kids, motherhood, writing

My husband will call or email me sometime during the day most days. Yesterday he asked how I was doing and I just told him I was tired but otherwise okay. Well, he proceeded to mumble something about me always being tired.

I guess I can’t lie to myself and tell myself I am not tired because I am. It’s a pretty tough job to take care of our family, home, and also workand go to school. Honestly, I am tired. However, I have a new goal. My goal is to tell him, and myself, that I am doing just fine. In all seriousness I am doing just fine. I have a wonderful husband, great kids, we are healthy, we have a home, insurance, jobs, education, transportation, Internet, games, movies, books, clothes…we have SO MUCH! So what if I am tired! I am blessed. All that I need are the basics and God gives me so much more. If all I have put on my plate, or the job that God has called me to do, leaves me tired then good! I am glad to be tired because it means I am blessed to have everything I have. I am more tired of being a winey baby and overweight than I am physically tired.

I am not tired. I am blessed.

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09/19/08

September 19, 2008 at 2:59 pm · Filed under God, Heaven, Jesus, writing

I have to wonder if I am struggling in something great right now. After re-reading the devotion I wrote this morning I am wondering if I there is a reason behind the terrible ache in my heart to see and be with Jesus. Am I sad? Am I stressed? Am I lonely? Is something coming and He is drawing me closer to him? I don’t understand.

Some mornings my writing is more inspiried feeling than others. Does that make sense? This morning, after not much sleep at all, I was worried I wouldn’t get everything done in time to get to work. But as my fingers flew across my laptop keyboard and I sipped my coffee (with hazelnut creamer, of course) I was in a daze. My heart was pounding in my chest and I could picture myself bowing down, maybe Jesus putting his hand on my shoulder, and then hearing his voice. How incredible would that be? I can close my eyes right now and picture it. The longing in my heart is almost painful right now.

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09/16/08

September 16, 2008 at 10:56 pm · Filed under friends, kids, motherhood, plans, sick, writing

Okay, so i think there should be some natural law that stipulates that mothers cannot be sick. I went to work for about an hour this morning and then came home. You would think after sleeping for four hours that I would feel better. NO, I only felt worse. My husband happened to be home but he didn’t must not have noticed how very badly I felt because he didn’t volunteer to go do my carpool for me. Although, I don’t think his mind was on me because he started his new position tonight and I think he was nervous.

I jumped into school just fine. I think I expected to be more overwhelmed with the work than I am. However, i think that because I am so very overwhelmed with the kids’ evening schedule that homework and work is a nice relief. Today I am a little stressed because I have been home all day, probably home tomorrow, and this is the first time I have sat down at my computer. I could have had all my homework done by now but that would take more than this little flu bug is going to give me at this moment in time.

Other than being sick I cannot complain. That’s not saying that I couldn’t sit here and think of things to complain about but I know that the ship is running smoothly and that God is with me so it’s all good. In the next 10 or 15 minutes I will be in bed for the evening, peeking on the kids occassionally. I don’t think I am going to eat. Doesn’t sound like a good idea. The stove isn’t working so the kids had chips, fruit, and sandwiches for lunch. I felt bad, they thought it was a cool treat. Bologna sandwiches would sure be a cheaper substitute (and easier) than what I try to give them for dinner.

I do keep thinking about the book though. I have 300 devotions (roughly) wriitten, which is probably enough for a book by now. I dread going through and editing/fixing my early morning typing errors. I think I have chosen the publisher I go through but now it’s time to get the $$ together so this may never happen. LOL.  I don’t know what is going to happen with the book but I do know I supposed to put one out there. I am starting to feel guilty or something for not having it done already. God very plainly told me to do this. Maybe God is trying to nudge me.

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